January 2011
December 2010
You're about to enter another dimension...
There is a Twilight Zone marathon on. Happy, happy New Year.
I really like the narrator’s voice, I must say.
This show is a fantastic example of television.
This Year.
I’m glad it’s ending. Even though I’m going to ring in the next year playing Scrabble with my grandparents, because my friends are wankers (I say that with all the love in my heart), I want 2011 to be better.
I want to be nicer. I want to be accepting. I want to grow up a bit more. I want to learn how to be okay with it all.
I just hope this year is kinder than the past few.
Day 10.
Put your iPod on shuffle and write the first ten songs.
Well this ones easy. 1. The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot- Brand New 2. The Truth Is, You Should Lie With Me- Say Anything 3. Tout Doucement- Feist 4. Timshel- Mumford and Sons. 5. Anyone Else But You- Moldy Peaches 6. Islands- The XX 7. May You Never- John Martyn 8. Home- The Dangerous Summer 9. Be Dark Night- Phosphorescent 10. On the...
as we melt let's make no noise.
Sometimes,
I sink, and then I swim.
“Though my sight be near and my way be long
Though the light I chase be...”
– My Dove My Lamb, by Phosphorescent
4 AM
I am incapable of sleep. Why, why, why. I want to rest. But my head is just too busy thinking. I’d rather be dreaming.
It's fucking bad...
When I miss you, but I can’t tell you. Because that would be clingy. And clingy is bad. I am clinging. Sorry.
I just don’t want to lose you again. And i don’t know what words I can use to say that.
Day 10.
Discuss your first love and first kiss.
They were different. My first kiss came first. He was a little boy named Tyler. I was a little girl.We were walking around in downtown Knoxville, and then he just stopped and was all like, “You’re pretty.” and then kissed me. It was a two second peck on the lips, but it was adorable for 12 year olds. I told Tyler I loved him, and he said...
Day 10.
Discuss your first love and first kiss.
They were different. My first kiss came first. He was a little boy named Tyler. I was a little girl.We were walking around in downtown Knoxville, and then he just stopped and was all like, “You’re pretty.” and then kissed me. It was a two second peck on the lips, but it was adorable for 12 year olds. I told Tyler I loved him, and he said...
Day 9.
What you hope your future will be like.
I feel as though I’ve already answered this one, but i’ll just say it again.
I hope my future will be somewhere nice and cozy and lovely. I hope I will have traveled sometime between now and my future. I hope I’m in a little flat, or a cottage, or tree house, or somewhere I am loved. I hope I am sane by then. I hope I have learned a bit...
Skins.
Madame Deluca: And what emotion have you chosen to depict?
Effy Stonem: Anger, Jealousy, Bitterness, Tiredness, Hope, Lust, Love.
Madame Deluca: A veritable feast. So where is it?
Effy Stonem: It’s everywhere.
Madame Deluca: My dear girl, I’m not sure I understand.
Effy Stonem: Its conceptual. You just can’t see it.
Madame Deluca: Your saying you...
Day 8.
A time you felt most satisfied with your life.
Lucky for me, I’ve got a lot of those times to choose from. Most recently, though, it was Christmas Night. Christmas was such a wonderful day itself. I spent it with family and warmth and love. Christmas night was almost better, because my boyfriend came over, and I got to see him for a little more than an hour. It wasn’t like this...
Day 7.
Your Zodiac sign and whether you think it fits you personality.
Virgo women’s characteristics profile is an odd mix of emotions and practicality, romance and common sense.
I think this particular Virgo description fits me perfectly, honestly.
Well.
This was, all in all, a very merry Christmas. The best gifts i got were an ipod touch (the new one, with face time!) and a pillow pet. A unicorn pillow pet.
But i wasn’t expecting much and it was just wonderful to spend the day with my family. So cutesy-gushy-gag, I know, but it made me really happy to have everyone around. I even called long distance relatives. Yay, holidays!
I hope your...
Day 6.
Thirty interesting facts about yourself.
Well this one will be fun.
1. I love, love elephants. They are most definitely my favorite animals. If it was possible to have pet elephants, I would do so.
2. I was born in Key West.
3. My favorite colour is basically any shade of blue.
4. My room stays neat and tidy is generally a week or less. I am a very disorganized person. But I know where...
Day 5.
A time you thought about ending your own life.
I had to pause a day to think about writing this. Also, I was sleepy.
This one is hard. I mean, the answer is easy for me to think of, but to put something like the way it feels to desire not to exist anymore into words is difficult for me. It goes beyond not wanting to live. Its more like… wanting never to have lived. I want to erase...
SATs.
I just got my scores back. I’m in the 92 percentile in reading. I got a 670. Holy shit. Writing, I was in the 72 percentile, with a score of 560. Math was not so good. I got a 480, which is in the 38 percentile.
But, damn. 92% in reading. I’m quite proud.
I have to work on math, I suppose.
Day 5.
A time you thought about ending your own life.
I had to pause a day to think about writing this. Also, I was sleepy.
This one is hard. I mean, the answer is easy for me to think of, but to put something like the way it feels to desire not to exist anymore into words is difficult for me. It goes beyond not wanting to live. Its more like… wanting never to have lived. I want to erase...
Day 4.
Your views on religion.
I grew up in an area where God and The Bible and church where a part f the air. However, I also grew up with a mom who never embroidered those things into my life. I was told stories from the Bible, but also from the Qu’ran. I knew quite extensively about ancient religions, and recently I’ve been teaching myself about Buddhism and other Eastern religions....
“I am still so naïve; I know pretty much what I like and dislike; but please,...”
– Sylvia Plath
Day 3.
Your views on drugs and alcohol.
There’s a lot to say on either of these things, so I’ll keep it short. When it comes to drugs, I hate them. By drugs, I mean hard ones. Heroin, coke, meth, and what not. Those drugs superbly fuck a person up, and I’ve witnessed it first hand. They should stay illegal, and it makes me sad when I hear of users, because they’re really just...
Day 2.
Where would you like to be in ten years?
In 10 years, I will be 27. I will have probably gone to college (or Europe, possibly both by that time). I guess I could generically say I would want to be A) Happy, B) Getting ready to settle down, or C) At the end of self-discovery. But I won’t be. Most likely. I mean, it’s all maybes. Maybe I’ll be on some whirl-wind adventure, or...
Day One.
Describe your current relationship status.
Well, I’m in one. And I guess I like it? I don’t know, I’m probably less happy than I pretend to be about the whole thing. Like, I’ve dated him before a year ago, and it ended badly, but then we got together again last October (mostly because I spent a few months easing my way back into his life- we stopped talking until I...
earlnemo asked: what do you want for christmas?
any suggestions for your mama?
any suggestions for your mama?
earlnemo asked: what do you want for christmas?
any suggestions for your mama?
any suggestions for your mama?
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Resolve.
I realize that New Year’s is a couple weeks away, but I just want to put up my resolutions now, so I can be serious about them, and actually make them happen.
-Lose Weight This is honestly not for anyone else’s sake. I just want to do it to feel better about me. And it will help me live better, I think.
-Eat Well, Live Well. This kind of goes hand in hand with the first one, but I...
Ocean Me.
Sometimes, you cannot kiss me and make it better. Sometimes, I am sad for no reason at all. Yes, there are also times when I will sing over the small things, such as footsie pajamas, tea and Welsh cakes, or just an afternoon reading by the fire. And I will tell you about those things and you will strain yourself to give a shit, because you have to.
There are those days, though, when you can hear...